@The-red-centaur ouch! In some ways our situation is similar and in others, it is different. I hope you don't mind if I make a suggestion. Mum got leukemia at the beginning of January last year. When it first began with the call from the doctor and appointment with the hospital for her first transfusion, I think that's when I was most panicked and depressed. I was already experiencing burnout, that I couldn't figure out how I was going to cope with everything, including the trauma of watching mum go through so much pain. It took probably a month for me to calm down. My first way of fixing it was to pretend it wasn't happening, I was dissociating, but when I realized I couldn't do that, I decided I would not think past the next appointment and that did work. I reframed it and dealt with it one bit at a time. After the initial month, a routine took over, we met lovely nurses and doctors, we had our favourite chairs and knew where all the good snacks were. We adapted. I think perhaps right now you may be feeling overwhelmed, but be gentle on yourself, you've been through a lot, there's a lot of unfamiliar, unknowns at the moment, but very soon, as you tackle each step, you will get more comfortable, you will get into routine, get to meet new people, and as you gain strength, all these feelings will subside. It may even effect other areas, like your eating issues...if you're less stressed, hopefully things will improve there as well.
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