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[Milalagic23]

Hi all, im new here and not quite sure how this works but ill try my best 🙂 i self harmed this morning after waking up and immediately becoming overwhelmed with stress. i am ok now, distracting myself and on the phone with a loved one. i guess i am just writing this because i am not sure where else to go, i am fairly sure i have bpd, i struggle daily and lately its been affecting my ability to go to work, meaning i have less money to help my family out with rent and food. i want to get a diagnosis so i can get proffessional help as lately i feel like im getting nowhere, my emotions are becoming more intense and i have constant feelings of emptiness, but as i said before money has always been a issue so i just cant afford to pay for appointments and care plans and things like that, so i guess thats why im here instead of telling this to a doctor. if anyone has any suggestions or anything like that it would be greatly appreciated 🙂

[Snowie]

Hi @Milalagic23 

Welcome to the Sane forums.

I can understand the self harm, it is hard to control when things are not going right.

As much as we can support you here, it does sound like you do need some professional support.

If it was me, I would start with a gp that you feel comfortable talking too. I know you can get a certain amount of psych appointments under medicare. I am not sure how many however, so will tag a @moderator so that they might be able to point you in the right direction.

One of the things that helps me is talking it through whether it be with my professional supports or on here. The forums have given me so much support over the years.

Please keep posting on here. We are here to support you.

[tyme]

Hey @Milalagic23 ,

I'm sorry to hear things are so rough for you at the moment. Sounds pretty rocky. 

I hear that you are looking to get a formal diagnosis? I'm wondering whether you have spoken to your GP about it, who can then maybe refer you to a specialist?

For me, my BPD was diagnosed by a mental health team in hospital. 

Also, I'm wondering what you think might be different when you have a diagnosis, compared to if you don't have a formal diagnosis? Is it for extra supports? Is it for your own understanding?

BPD is very curable, but at the same time, it takes a lot of time - years in fact.

Please take care of yourself.

It'll also be good if you can have a look at our Community guidelines if you haven't already. This will guide you with posting, especially around self-harm.

[Milalagic23]

Thankyou so much for the reply ive been to my gp before talked about how i was feeling but they just asked me some yes or no questions, said it seems like depression and they referred me to headspace... im sure alot of us have our own stories about headspace, it didn't go well for me and put me off getting help for a long time, however im now starting to realise its possibly the only thing that could help, im looking to get a diagnosis so i can better understand what is going on with my brain because alot of the time when i breakdown i dont know what its about i just have these heavy emotions that incapacitate me, its also so that i can get proffessional help as im aware thats not possible without a diagnosis, 

[Milalagic23]

Thankyou so much i will continue to post, doctors is just a money issue that will take time to organise, i will get there eventually 😕

[Milalagic23]

also do i just reply to the posts in this thread or make a new post if i have other things to say, sorry i have no clue

[hanami]

hey @Milalagic23 you can start a new thread for a new topic if you like! Ask any questions....none are 'too silly'!