Lived Experience Forum

[hiddenite]

Hi I feel the same trying to have that conversation.
Why cant people have a conversation I'm not going to Suicde by just talking openly about it. For me not being able to talk about being suicidal make it worse.
I saw my gp and told he said try not to think about it.
I tried to talk about it with my psychiatrist and psychologist both times ending up in the mental health unit.
In the metal health unit when I tried to have the conversation they would sedate me.
since October I have been in the mhu 5 times. My 6th visit I spent a month there. Also 16 different med changes.
For me it is a daily battle I have attempted three times in the past 10 months.
I just want to be able to have the discussion why is this my only option to have a way out and always the means.
I just want to say I am safe at the moment.
I also have all the numbers.
Karen

[Crazy_Bug_Lady]

I'm sitting at the clinic now waiting waiting...
Hopefully I see my GP before I lose my nerve...
I'm telling myself I have to at least see him so's I can get a sick certificate.
One of my friends called earlier and said if I didn't go he'd drive down here to take me to the doc. He lives about 4 hours away. And I know he'd do it, so I'm here, otherwise I'd feel even worse.

[hiddenite]

Goodluck im thinking of you. You are so courageous just remember deep breathes and you will be ok
take care and stay safe
karen

[Crazy_Bug_Lady]

Thanks karen
Lot of love

[hiddenite]

Let us know how you go....
big hugs to you

[Former-Member]

Hope your appointment went ok, thinking of you,

LJ

[Jacques]

wishing you all the best @Crazy_Bug_Lady, i hope your doctor was helpful

take care, stay safe

Jacques

[Crazy_Bug_Lady]

Still waiting.
The longer i wait the more scared i get...

[Jacques]

hang in their, you have done so well already, you should not have much longer to go. we are all here to support you, imagine @Former-Member, @hiddenite and me are sitting beside you, giveing you encouragement.

you will be ok, just hang in their.

[Crazy_Bug_Lady]

All done. Didn't really discuss my thoughts... I half said, but yeah...

We talked, I cried, he talked, I still cried.

I'm still miserable, but he said that I need to work on opening up to my pdoc. And he said he'll call and speak to my pdoc.

It's all so goddamn hard though. I didn't have a normal upbringing, I don't know how to be open with people.

He gave me a copy of my latest psych report, there's a part in there that cracked me up. It sums me up completely, which is kinda sad...