Went to visit mil again this afternoon, while she was up and moving her appearance reminds me of my dad in his last weeks/ days and I cant help wondering what that means for the near future. Feeling quite low at the moment. I will be ok though, dont want to cause concern, just need to get my thoughts out.  She has an appointment with the oncologist tomorrow hopefully will know more then. 

While we were there blood sugar level was checked and was so high meter would not even read it. That would not be helping. Can help but wonder about the underlying reason. 

Just trying to encourage darling and boys to make every moment count without causing alarm.