Hello @BlueBay - so sorry it has taken me awhile to respond. I don't get on the forums much now as I am so busy but want you to know that I care for you and your welfare.
I read what your latest psychiatrist said about you suffering everyday hardships and the despair over your financial situation. In my life I have been from riches to rags from rags to riches and can relate to both. If I was given a choice of giving up my money now to regain my husband's health from cancer and for my daughter's safety I would give up all my money in a minute. It's hard to struggle financially but sometimes we overlook the good things we have - health, family, friends, love "which is priceless". Look at what you have. Don't compare your life with your friends but look at what you have, not what you haven't. People on Facebook can seem to be having great lives but all carry some burden or suffering.
If what your psych said about why you are feeling SI and depressed is correct - everyday hardships, I think counselling would be best for you. As meds correct a chemical imbalance and if that's not the cause of your depression etc I can't see how it will help. Do you think the hormonal imbalance menopause may be causing some depression? Something to discuss with your medical professionals.
I can relate to your struggle. I work for our local community centre (I am glad to see you took my advice and contacted them for food etc), where I see countless people who struggle to put food on the table after paying the mortgage or rent, people who are ill and cannot work and the homeless. I can tell you that you are not alone as the majority struggle with debt and finances to some degree and it's common unfortunately. And it's getting worse.
Can you rent a room in your house for additional income?
There are services that can help you get buy - but nothing can buy the love you have with your granddaughter and family. So many don't have this. Keep your focus on this and you will feel better.
The community centre can also help or refer to financial advisors who may be able to give sound advice that can help you save some dollars and keep afloat. Thinking of you xxx ❤️
My BP went up with meds I was on but has come back down to normal with the newer meds. There can be lots of reasons why it is up and stress is definitely something that can contribute to an elevated BP. Being monitored is a good idea - will give your doctor a better idea on levels and if there are any factors that contribute to it being high.
